Deadly Eyes & Distant Cries

Take a walk in my shoes




Face down in your religion

This restless ghost becomes aware

Of all your misguided beliefs

Expressed in unanswered prayers

Drowning in hymns and worship

Lie the demons that can’t be seen

Hidden but never forgotten

Steady shadows amongst the routine

The final plague is among us

There is nothing more to achieve 

Spirits are punished for treason

Symbolizing the make believe
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Lonely are the days

That you cannot be found

Dark clouds hover near

Save me from this empty sound

Suicidal is the path

We must cross from time to time

Holding you by my side

Keeps me on that daily climb

Simple is the life

I long for without you

Only death shall part us now

As your poison flows right through

Destined for your evil

Is my wretched soul

That tortures the existence 

Of this broken heart you stole 
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Why do things have to change?
Can’t we all just stay the same?
People won’t fall out of love
And walk away without any shame.

Our love would last forever.
Butterflies wouldn’t fly away.
Words would be less harsh,
But nothing’s the same today.

Loving looks take place often
Instead of few and far between.
The looks would be of passion.
Not resentment or just plain mean.

Kisses would be desired
Not out of habit or familiarity.
But on in intimate level
Like where we used to be.

©KJ Suicide

One Day

One day you’re here

The next day you’re gone

You come in the night

And leave me by dawn

I see you at lunch

But you walk right on by

And sit down with her

While I wonder why

You waste my time

But I just can’t let go

Why do you lead me on

I just need to know

You always say that

You’ll leave her for good

Then come stay with me

But I don’t think you would

You shouldn’t come any more

I think it’s time to move on

Because one day you’re here

And the next day you’re gone


©KJ Suicide

It’s Our Time

Tonight’s the night
We can let go
Tonight’s the night
We stop moving slow
Because tonight’s the night
We prove what we already know

The love that we share
Is the world’s greatest goal
The love that we share
It comes from the soul
For the love that we share
Is beyond our control

Hidden in our hearts
Is our deepest desire
Hidden in our hearts
A misguided fire
But hidden in our hearts
Is a love to expire

©KJ Suicide

Paying The Price

He loses sleep at night
Wondering where you are
I can hear his cries for you
You were his shining star

I watch him sitting alone
Playing with his games
Thinking of his dad
And taking all the blame

He thinks you left because of him
He thinks that it’s his fault
Now he shuts me out
His mind locked inside a vault

I try to explain to him
What really happened that night
But he doesn’t want to hear me
All he wants to do is fight

He must have gotten that from us
Because we never talked very nice
We couldn’t stop fighting at all
Now he’s paying the price

I love him with all my heart
And I know that you do too
But we’re destroying him inside
He needs to see what’s true

©KJ Suicide


Gracious, flirtatious out of control
Steamy, dreamy pure heart and soul

Heated, treated complete respect
Guessing, caressing without neglect

Discreetly, completely sensual lust
Individual, unconditional genuine trust

Irresistible, inadmissible feelings of bliss
Surrender, tender passionate kiss

©KJ Suicide

Sometimes You Just Hit Me

Sometimes you just hit me
Like a punch straight to the chest
This is the exact reason
My thoughts are not the best
I keep them to myself
To save them from your jokes
Your words are like the flame
And my visions become the smoke

Bad Memory

Everywhere that I go
And anything that I do
Always comes back to haunt me
Because I’m reminded of you
I try to forget what happened
It stays in the back of my mind
All I want to do is move forward
But it’s like I’m stuck on rewind
Memories get crowded together
Whiles yours get pushed to the top
There’s nothing that I can do
But let it play until it will stop
One day I hope to be free
Of all the pain and fear
And all the thoughts of you
That always bring a tear
Waiting for the next chapter
And trying so hard to get there
Wondering if I’ll ever make it
But it may be too hard to repair

©KJ Suicide

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