Deadly Eyes & Distant Cries

Take a walk in my shoes




Why do things have to change?
Can’t we all just stay the same?
People won’t fall out of love
And walk away without any shame.

Our love would last forever.
Butterflies wouldn’t fly away.
Words would be less harsh,
But nothing’s the same today.

Loving looks take place often
Instead of few and far between.
The looks would be of passion.
Not resentment or just plain mean.

Kisses would be desired
Not out of habit or familiarity.
But on in intimate level
Like where we used to be.

©KJ Suicide

One Day

One day you’re here

The next day you’re gone

You come in the night

And leave me by dawn

I see you at lunch

But you walk right on by

And sit down with her

While I wonder why

You waste my time

But I just can’t let go

Why do you lead me on

I just need to know

You always say that

You’ll leave her for good

Then come stay with me

But I don’t think you would

You shouldn’t come any more

I think it’s time to move on

Because one day you’re here

And the next day you’re gone


©KJ Suicide


Gracious, flirtatious out of control
Steamy, dreamy pure heart and soul

Heated, treated complete respect
Guessing, caressing without neglect

Discreetly, completely sensual lust
Individual, unconditional genuine trust

Irresistible, inadmissible feelings of bliss
Surrender, tender passionate kiss

©KJ Suicide


Underground or not
Stranded out to sea
Hoping for a better future
Incapacitated refugee

I’m bleeding in the brain
It’s pouring down my face
Causing delusional obsessions
Of your poisonous embrace

The thoughts I have are crazy
This conscience is driving me insane
All the destruction going on
Is the realization that I’m to blame

Our guaranteed demise
And the end of our invention
With the worthless left behind
And their preserved mental tension

The shattering conclusion to our united rage
Makes for a much smoother survival
Release me from this cage

©KJ Suicide

Before I Say Goodbye

Promise me you’ll be waiting
When it’s my time to go
And you’ll be there to help me
Teach me what I need to know

I’m sure I will need your help
I’m scared for what is there
How do I know it is better
And what do I do to prepare

What is it like up there
Or where ever it is we go?
Will I feel happy or at peace
I really just want to know

I need to know what happens
When I finally leave this place
Are there people there who love
Or am I just another face?

Is there really something out there
Beyond this world we’re part of
Or is it just a fairytale
There are no messages from above

I would really like to know
What will happen when I die
So I can know what to do
Before I say goodbye

If there is something bigger out there
I would like to know for sure
That I will belong in heaven
Because right now I don’t feel secure

I don’t know where I’ll be going
And I’m not sure if I believe
All the stuff they tell me in church
But I don’t want to be naïve

Sometimes I sit and pray
Not necessarily for me
But for my son and his well being
But does He hear my plea?

I don’t want to keep my son
From being a better person
So how do I show him the way
When I haven’t even picked one?

©KJ Suicide

Not Afraid

I’m not afraid
To say your mine
Hold your hand
And give my time

I’m not afraid
To say your name
Stand by your side
Take your blame

I’m not afraid
To lift you high
Support your dreams
And help you fly

I’m not afraid
To hear your fears
And wipe your eyes
So you see clear

I’m not afraid
To pull you tight
Watch your back
We’ll win this fight


©KJ Suicide

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